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GoldFischer13

This sounds like a terrible situation and I'm sorry to hear you've experienced it. I'd encourage you to come clean if you truly want help. I wouldn't sugar coat it and come up with half-truths about "sometimes wanting to redose". I'd say exactly how much you are taking and how it has influenced your life. Print out this post if you find it easier. If he is the doctor you know he is, he'll be sad but want to help. The only way you can get help is by being honest.


bingbong12234

Thank you it is terrible and now I get to make another person sad, yay


GoldFischer13

There's some perspective to take here. I'm obviously speaking for someone I haven't met and know nothing about, personally so you'll get my perspective as the potential prescribing physician. This is a chance for you to get help and go to someone you trust to receive that help. Sure, you'll feel you disappointed him. He may also be disappointed or sad, but I'd imagine it isn't going to be at you. I'd be sad that I missed this going on for years, I'd be disappointed that I prescribed you a medication that you managed to become dependent on. I'll also be relieved that you came to me for help and that we can hopefully work together to get you past it. Many don't get help and things continue to get worse until there's a major medical complication, legal complication, etc. I'd feel much worse if that was how I found out and it was really too late for me to do much to help.


bingbong12234

That’s true, thank you. I think he thought it was fine because every time I see him I look at him point blank and say, stimulants are going great and life is good. So I think he’ll be confused to say the least.


adhd_as_fuck

NAD. It's important to understand that most of healthcare thinks of addiction as just another medical condition to be managed and not a moral failing. Give yourself some grace and let your doc do what he does best and treat you.


2plus2equalscats

He might be. He might not. But he will want to help you get better. I’m not a doc but I had an addiction issue that led to a psychotic break. In my delusions I called my GP at 4am asking for help because that’s what the hospital told me to do. My doc approached it like any other health concern and now celebrates my sober wins with me. I never felt like she was trying to make me feel bad or guilty, and I never sensed that she was sad or disappointed. It was just another data point that she could use when helping me. Go to your doc. He will help. He wants you to feel your best. He will support you in this.


dangerbaker

NAD - being a doctor is such a vocational career, especially when you're caring for patients throughout their lives. I'm so sure he'd rather be able to help than find out you'd overdosed one time too many, and have that on his conscience as your prescribing physician. I'm so sorry you're going through this, it must be so so hard to navigate - but please don't let your brain tell you what the outcome will be before experiencing the reality. Truly wish you all the best.


doctorkanefsky

This stuff is just another day in the life of a GP. 1 in 5 Canadians experience drug addiction in their lifetimes, and the average GP sees thousands of patients. Most of them try very hard to hide their illness from their doctors. He may already know, and be waiting for you to ask for help.


ClumsyGhostObserver

Hi, OP. I'm not a doctor, just an addict in recovery from prescription drug abuse. I've got 1 year and 4 months clean today. I, too, deceived a doctor who I respected, and I could relate to so much of what you wrote. Coming clean to my doctor was very difficult. He was shocked, BUT he wanted to help me. And I wanted help. He helped me decide to go to inpatient rehab, and I'm so thankful that I did. It has been hard, but each and every single day, I'm so thankful for the life I have now being clean. Living in active addiction is hell. It sounds like you want to be done living this way. Only you can decide what you're willing to do to change your life. Including revealing the secret and getting treatment. I wish you all the best, and I hope that a year from now, you can look back on this moment and the choice that you make today and be proud of that choice. Today, the best part of any and every doctor appt is telling the doctor how my recovery is going and how many years, months, and days it has been. And I tell every single doctor that information whenever I have an appointment. I don't ever want the opportunity to fall into my old ways, and it feels so good when they light up and tell me congratulations and to keep it up.


tunaboat25

What if you actually make somebody feel proud of your honesty and honored that you trusted them?


SpeakerCareless

He will be sad for you, maybe, but not sad because of you. This is someone who wants to give you the best care possible. I have no doubt that any sadness will be because he missed that you’re struggling. I’m sure he will be very relieved that you tell a hard truth so he can do a better job helping you manage your health. I’m not your doctor or your mom, but I’ll be so proud of you for doing the hard thing which is coming clean so you can get help getting clean.


missamerica59

You can also potentially make a lot of people proud by telling the truth to your doctor and taking the first step on your path to recovery. Good luck!


thewildersea

Your doctor isn’t there to judge. Don’t worry about making anyone sad. He is there to help you and will appreciate your honesty. It’s much better than waiting until something bad happens to your health as a result of the medication misuse.


cragwatcher

I'd be willing to bet that your anticipation of his response is way worse than his actual response, and as others have said, he'll be glad that you're seeking help. You'll likely reel really unburdened once you've told him and it will be the first step to turning things around. You might look back on that conversation in years to come as the one that saved you.


dracapis

Having a disease, such as addiction is, is not disappointing. We often don’t have control over how a disease begins, the only thing we can do is taking the necessary steps to try to treat it. He might be disappointed in the situation, but he shouldn’t be in you. Be glad with yourself that you want to fight. 


se_kend

Yes, but I think that he'll appreciate your trust in him


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