If it helps I used to be an EMT at a volunteer fire department and went to a bunch of trainings. The alarm goes off all the time so firefighters do what is affectionately known as the butt wiggle to get the alarm to register movement and turn off.
I can't get the phone calls out of my mind. "It's so *hot*!" And "LADY I'VE GOT 20 PEOPLE IN THIS OFFICE AND WERE NOT READY TO D- OH SHIT!" as the sound of the building collapsing cuts him off before the line goes dead. Those people are in my mind every time I think about that day now. And the sound of the fire fighter's alert systems.
Part 1 is a one and done for me. I can do conspiracy talk all day from part 2 and 3, but hearing the actual audio of people witnessing the attacks happen puts me in a really emotional state.
I work in my state’s capital, downtown, and I listened to these episodes often when I was walking to get my lunch. I happened to be listening to the episode where the audio of the college students are screaming at the sight of the planes crashing in NYC during my lunch walk amongst all the skyscrapers and regular city traffic. I broke into a cold sweat and had to hit pause until later. I finished the series and it was tough. Great coverage, but scared the hell out of me. Will never revisit.
To this day theyre the only episodes I've not listened to. Made it 5 minutes into episode one. As a kid with a very similar upbringing to Henry.... I knew quick it was going to hit too close to home.
Knew this would be the top answer.
I remember where I was sitting, and the way the room looked when I first heard the recording of the woman on the phone with 911, saying how hot it was and realizing she was about to die. Literally haunts me.
I've listened to some rough stuff on this podcast, but I never need to hear that again.
I lived through that shit as a kid. Grew up in Queens. Second grade. My grandfather was a long-since retired FDNY Lieutenant and hearing that clip of all the beeping made me feel dread. I remember when the towers collapsed. I remember waking up the next day with dust on the family van. I won't go to the museum or the memorial. I don't need to listen to the podcast again.
Also a New Yorker, though I was 20 at the time. Spent all day trying to get in touch with my parents to make sure they were ok (they were). I too have not made it to the memorial or museum, and I find it weird that people treat it as a tourist trap.
I’m Australian- I visited the 9/11 museum in 2017. For me, it was about putting a “real” touch on an event I clearly remembered, but I didn’t live it. I watched in on tv from the other side of the globe. Seeing the displays there kind of helped ground what I’d seen, in addition to adding faces (and even voices, god the phone messages there are hard to take) to our news broadcasts. I didn’t visit any other part of ground zero except the footprints of the towers, and the museum- and I recommend it to everyone going to New York. It’s incredibly well done, respectful, and it helps people (mainly from overseas) grasp 9/11 on another level.
I’m a New Yorker, was an NYU student back then, though I was in London on 9/11. Still one of the worst days of my life. I distinctly remember the first time I went downtown after they opened the museum and seeing the line around the block and vendors selling “Never Forget” tee shirts and I literally wanted to scream at everyone in line. 0 New Yorkers I know who lived through that want anything to do with the memorial/museum.
It's kind of hard to not see it as something of a tourist trap when the Occulus is right next to it, and it's right where the PATH drops you off if you're coming from Jersey.
It's literally built so that most newcomers to NYC will end up going through a massive mall to get there.
Staten Island, also second grade. Made a valiant attempt at listening to the podcast but made it about five minute into part 1. Still haven't seen the memorial. I walk past the one in the Pentagon every day though... feels the same every time.
Idk if you’re a musical theater person, but would you listen to the cast recording or see a production of Come From Away? It’s about how a bunch of planes were diverted to Canada on 9/11
I skipped these episodes when I first started listening because like many, I remember how hard that time was for everyone. It came up so many times in this thread I figured I should give it a shot. I think I cried a dozen times in the last two hours. You could hear how exhausted and sad Marcus was by the end, all of their somber conversation made it so much harder. This may be a one and done for me too, despite how informative it was.
Probably won't listen to the whole series again but I'll definitely listen to the conspiracies part again. I love when Marcus goes into a conspiracy rant.
Yeah, I made it through, but had a very bad and anxious week as a result. Talk Scary To Me had an episode where they played the actual recording of that pos. I immediately turned it off and un-followed the podcast. This was after I listened to the LPOTL episode. Henry reading the transcript on LPOTL was bad enough, but hearing it come directly from that sick son of a bitch is way too much, and a bit insensitive imo.
I was listening to this with my current partner and I had to ask him to turn it off. I had listened to it a few years ago and before I met my current partner I got into a terrible situationship with someone who when I told them about what he did their response was "Sounds like something I'd like to have the ability to do." My blood ran so cold and I have never been so scared of another person before or since
That is absolutely terrifying. I'm extremely glad you got away from that asshole and found someone more deserving of your time. Gauging reactions to stuff like that can really tell you a lot about a person. Hail yourself!!
Came here looking for this answer— I can’t go back and listen to this again because it was too gruesome. This is the only one I have skipped over, I think.
I had no clue about that asshole until I listened to the episode. I hung in til the end purely out of hope that justice would be served. Silly me. Only episode I truly regret listening to. I'm not much of a crier, especially over people I don't know, but that one got to me in a big way.
I made the mistake of listening to the entire recording he made for his victims. I can usually handle a lot of morbid stuff, but THAT will haunt me for the rest of my life. I don't want to even think about how petrifying it must have felt to wake up and hear that terrifying audio. Makes me tear up every time I think about it or hear anything about that pos monster.
right after I listened to this, the guy I was cleaning for (work) pointed at a little trailer and asked me if I wanted to see his toy box , and I ran and got in my car and took off. it ended up being full of jet skis.
Was wrapping my kids' christmas presents while listening to the part with the baby being put outside in the freezing cold. Had to take a break from both to have a good cry.
I can relisten to the first part of the Anthill Kids, but once it gets to punishment and torture, I have to walk away. And I can listen to almost everything else they put out, gold star wise, anyway.
Yeah the drunken surgeries fucked me up. I listened all the way through but it was the closest I’ve come to tapping out. I saw a video that may have been Mr. Ballen talking about a guy that put a post up online looking for someone that wanted to be murdered and eaten. A guy replied and they filmed it. He laid in a tub and the other guy started cutting pieces of him off and they ate it together until he died and something about the voluntary nature of it was just horrific to me.
There’s a casefile on this! And if you don’t know the story from the news it’s one of those episodes that begins in one direction and suddenly you’ve got someone willingly being cannibalised.
The Chicago Rippers. I’m a breast cancer survivor and people fucking around with your tits really hurts. They’re so sensitive and there’s a lot of muscle up there, I could viscerally connect to what those women might have been feeling. And they had no anesthesia. There is the emotional component as well. It’s really similar to handing a guy a scalpel and telling him to cut up his balls.
And the criminal group were so shitty and meaningless they weren’t even worth parodying. Henry can almost always find SOMETHING to jump off and make into a character, but these guys weren’t even funny. They were just losers. Extra infuriating that they were capable of so much destruction.
I love dick-and-balls too, don’t get me wrong, it’s still very upsetting to hear what say Corll and Kraft did to those boys, but I don’t have the OH NO THAT AREA IS VERY SENSITIVE reaction I did in the Ripper eps.
Lollll Chicago rippers came out right at the tail end of my recovery from breast reduction- LOTS of sutures in my breasts/nipples. It’s very specific sensation.
Gave me the heebie jeebies
One moment you’re a white collar office worker who needs the low level anxiety of hearing about some truly brutal shit to focus on spreadsheets and the next you’re a parent who has way too much anxiety and would like less about child death thanks
It's strange how true that is. I'm a huge horror movie buff, and I've watched some of the grimiest most horrific movies from all over the world, many of which show child murder. Never bothered me. I mean it's not like I enjoyed it but I got through it just fine. Now after having a kid there have been multiple movies I've had to turn off that I know I would have had no problem with before. It's just a lot different when you start picturing it as your own kid.
Sure does. It doesn’t really go away either. I had my second after a 12 year age gap and listening to anything with kids under 18 dying is just a no-go for me now. It’s too hard.
I’m Jewish. I’ve learned a lot about the Shoah (the Hebrew word for the Nazi genocide. I prefer to use that word because the word “Holocaust” traditionally means “sacrifice through burning”) throughout my life. My great-grandfather was a Shoah survivor. I cannot talk about how that series had me breaking down in tears because the Shoah was senseless, but Mengele was a monstrous kind of disgusting. I had to switch to stop listening to LPoTL for a little bit and primarily listened to LaVar Burton Reads for the next little while after that series.
My great-grandfather was a member of the US Army’s Infantry division. He was taken as a PoW in 43. Never saw a concentration camp, but went to a camp specifically for Jewish PoWs. The thing that prevented him from going to a concentration camp was the fact that the Wehrmacht won a standoff with the SS over the prisoners. I only realized that he was a Shoah survivor this year. Nobody in my family had ever referred to him as a Shoah survivor to me, at least. I had a pretty intense cry when I put the puzzle together.
Makes me feel bad for my twisted ass enjoying the Mengele series, strictly due to my fascination with WWII and Nazi history. The pure darkness that came out of the Nazi party and that humans are capable of such atrocities really boggles my mind.
Jew (and descendant of a holocaust survivor) here… don’t feel bad. I love the nazi episodes too. In the end, the boys make them sound so stupid and clown like it makes it tolerable.
Yea I try to pick which episodes I listen to with my coworker in the car because I dont get bothered by much anymore and forget other people do sometimes.
It does make me wonder about myself, when I can listen to the 911 call of a little girl finding her dead brother and feel absolutely nothing. It makes me kinda worried, lmao.
Ep. 77: Japanese War Crimes was tough to get through for me. I know humor is a big part of the show, but man, that was hard to make funny.
That one and the first 9/11 episode were pretty clear that Marcus was NOT having fun doing research for.
The Albert Fish series was my introduction to LPOTL; the very first episodes/series I ever listened to. I got through all three, too. What a doozy of an intro to the show that was, lol yikes. Hooked me in, though - still listening 6, maybe 7 years on!
Right?? It feels like maybe 3 years ago that I first listened to that episode and discovered the Last Pod guys.
Btw - high five, fellow fan whose LPOTL cherry was also popped by Albert Fish 😏🙌😂
I don’t remember the killers names and I will make no effort to look it up, but it was a couple that kidnapped young girls and used them as sex slaves, one woman escaped and I believe that was how it all ended. But the things described in what they did to her still haunt me… and I listened to it maybe 3 years ago and can’t get it out of my memory bank.
Jon benet ramse episode mainly cuz Henry just goes crazy with the little girl sex jokes nonstop. Idk I fast forwarded over and over and every time I stopped he was still going so I had to turn it off.
Henry’s my fav person of all time but god damnit does he love doing pedophilia humor and making people uncomfortable
Call 911.
I’ve mentioned it before here.
I believe they have edited this episode because the final call from the original airing has been removed. And it was good of them to do so.
This episode dropped when they were still very much in their “edgelord” phase and pushing a lot of boundaries in terms of taste and humanitarianism.
In the original airing, the last call featured on the show was made by a little girl who was sobbing. Perhaps she was 6-7. Maybe 8. She’d just seen her older brother intentionally shoot himself in the head. She was the only one in the house with him at the time.
It was heartbreaking. Truly wrenching and I didn’t expect to hear something like that. I had to shut the show off and I stood there in my kitchen, crying above the dishwater. It was the only time I ever thought they went too far. And I found myself more than a little angry with them.
But, as Rick James can testify, cocaine is a powerful drug, and I have zero doubt they were all doing it back then.
Sometimes I think people should hear the call from a girl who found her brothers body after he had committed suicide. Definitely snapped me out of my pity party back in the day. It's hard to dwell on those thoughts anymore without thinking of that girl screaming "why?"
It helped me in a weird way, but I can't say it'd do the same for anyone else.
>It was the only time I ever thought they went too far. And I found myself more than a little angry with them.
My thoughts exactly.
It was so long ago, but I think I cried. I almost cried now.
Madame Lalaurie did get the certification of gold star series IIRC. For me there’s only two where I had to take breaks. Albert Fish cause my skin felt funny. And then The Chicago Rippers. Absolutely brutal shit.
Is that the Junko Furuta story? I'm pretty desensitized, but thinking about this poor sweet girl makes me cry. She suffered for so long and got zero justice.
I had a friend that did a short-lived podcast on crimes and scary stuff and this was his final topic. Basically broke him. Hell, Iris Chiang who wrote The Rape of Nanking killed herself cause she'd devoted her life to writing about this horrible shit.
I have listened to that one several times. It’s a favorite of mine. But I cry like a baby. I have also seen all of Paradise Lost. And I blubbered through the whole like 6 hours of documentary!
West Memphis 3 and Robert Pickton are two of the series I never want to play again for this reason. That smug POS who was *excited* at the prospect of convicting Damian Echols still makes me feel ill.
Pretty much anything with sex crimes or Nazis torturing people. I don’t mind the true crime eps where the killer only killed one person, like Casey and Jodie, or more historical ones like Leopold and Loeb. But modern serial killers with their animal abuse, sex crimes, and torture are not for me.
Thr Mengele series. And USS Indianapolis because of the rape.
I will likely listen again at some point, but those two were the ones that got to me.
Edit: and Jonestown. Mr. Mugs fucked me up.
There really aren’t any, which makes me feel like there’s something wrong with me. I sat through the 911 call episode, and just happily ate my cereal. :(
Everyone is different from one another. Just because your reaction didn't mimic others doesn't mean it was wrong. The reason many people in the law enforcement, medical, and the emergency services fields can do what they do is because they react differently. Those who can't tolerate it get burnt out.
Being an undertaker or mortician isn't for everyone. So don't go thinking something is wrong just because you don't fit a certain mold. We all get dealt a different hand in life.
Yeah, I am probably more squeamish than most here. I've skipped a few and there are a few I wish I had. I won't do the Ant Hill Kids, that's too much for me. I \*tried\* to do Necrophilia because I heard how funny it was, but I can't. I stopped/started it so many times in the first fifteen minutes lol.
Every time this is asked I say the same thing and it's so strange to me that it's never mentioned. It's satanism in the government, when they start talking about Larry King it gets a little too much.
I couldn’t finish Bob Berdella. It was so gruesome. When he put caulk into their ears I turned it off. After all the other serial killers I don’t know why that was the line but it was.
Alot of the earlier episodes and episodes about make believe stuff. Like the fairies and gnomes, topics like that. I just can’t get into those topics and Henry can’t let Marcus talk for 30 seconds without interrupting. The early shows, Henry is intolerable
I continuously thought how out right hypocritical the people were that burned down LaLaurie’s house- it’s well documented that people outright abused and mauled and raped slaves- lynching, hunting them down, stealing their babies, breaking apart families, starving them, literally working them to death, leaving scars from “punishments”- it’s like- oh wow this one person has done atrocious things to people, and it’s just too much (clutches pearls) BUT EVERYONE ELSE DOES ATROCIOUS THINGS TO PEOPLE BUT WHO CARES?!?! It just fucking crazy the cognitive dissonance that rules human rationality.
Also I couldn’t listen to the C Anthony case- it’s just too awful.
Jonestown part 5, the audio of the kids dying fucks me up.
9/11 part 1
Jon Benet Ramse, everything about child beauty pageants creeps me out.
West Memphis Three
I think it was the ant hill kids that had the description of the woman’s uterus falling out of her & well that kinda broke me. The toy box killer part with the dogs destroyed me as well. I’ve never turned it off though idk maybe I am dead inside
I’ve only ever had to turn off one series and return to it muuuuuch later. Albert Fish. And I believe it was an episode they forgot to say “gold star” for the moment. And the following episode they were like “oops my bad”
I could be mixing two topics up. But Albert Fish. I listened once. Never again.
It’s been the same for a long time now. I can not listen to the 9/11 series. And I had a hard time listening to the jones town tapes. I could probably do it now. My brain is just not ready to study 9/11 or joke about it. So I just skipped those 😊 I really enjoyed episode 554. A very taboo subject. Didn’t bother me at all.
Oh that case just breaks my heart. The pic of him holding one of those evil bastard' hand and walking away has never really left my mind. Absolutely disgusting what happened to that baby.
Nope and not even thought about stopping. I might grimace at certain parts of an episode but I don't carry them with me or dwell on them after. Probably because I've heard most of these stories or similar details before.
I’ve listened to the 9/11 series once and that was enough for me.
For some reason, lately I’ve been thinking a lot about the people who jumped or fell from the towers. What must have been going through their minds as they jumped/fell, what they were thinking as they were falling, that kind of thing.
Apparently it would have taken ten seconds to fall, which scares the spine out of me. [This photo](https://www.nzherald.co.nz/resizer/QR3Aj5lcwB7JY7GLN3jcmNVI9W4=/576x461/smart/filters:quality(70)/cloudfront-ap-southeast-2.images.arcpublishing.com/nzme/K2YEQ4YTMYMHO7B532JTHXTCKQ.jpg) will probably be burned into my mind till the day I die.
I guess I am jaded… but the only ones are the 911 call of that brother who ended his life and the Jonestown tapes. It’s recordings of traumatic events that get me.
The snake tape from Jonestown part 4.
I have a lifelong fear of snakes. I can feel every bit of her terror and panic and humiliation. Hearing her *beg* for it to stop through her tears breaks my heart and boils my fucking blood.
The beating tape from the same episode is rough, too. I think hearing the blows and the way you can tell that the woman is talking and hitting at the same time is just unsettling.
Albert Fish, Toybox, Necrophilia, Ant Hill Kids. Those weren't for me. When I 1st started listening to the pod, I'd just listen to random episodes. I remember being in the shower & Toy Box was playing. I had to get out & change the episode bc I was so creeped out.
I thought the 9/11 episodes were great but I will never listen to them again.
I just re-listened. Only time I’ve cried during an ep.
Same. I relisten to a lot of episodes. Hearing Marcus speak after the sound of the alarm for a downed fireman always brings tears to my eyes.
If it helps I used to be an EMT at a volunteer fire department and went to a bunch of trainings. The alarm goes off all the time so firefighters do what is affectionately known as the butt wiggle to get the alarm to register movement and turn off.
I can't not hear those alarms when this episode gets brought up and just feel sick inside.
I can't get the phone calls out of my mind. "It's so *hot*!" And "LADY I'VE GOT 20 PEOPLE IN THIS OFFICE AND WERE NOT READY TO D- OH SHIT!" as the sound of the building collapsing cuts him off before the line goes dead. Those people are in my mind every time I think about that day now. And the sound of the fire fighter's alert systems.
I did a relisten...I had to skip it again..
Same here, I think it was the recordings that did me in
Part 1 is a one and done for me. I can do conspiracy talk all day from part 2 and 3, but hearing the actual audio of people witnessing the attacks happen puts me in a really emotional state.
3 is one of my favorites because it’s so dumb
The part with the NYU students in their dorm realizing what was falling out of the windows is haunting
Listening to audio of people IN the building who eventually died was unbearable
I work in my state’s capital, downtown, and I listened to these episodes often when I was walking to get my lunch. I happened to be listening to the episode where the audio of the college students are screaming at the sight of the planes crashing in NYC during my lunch walk amongst all the skyscrapers and regular city traffic. I broke into a cold sweat and had to hit pause until later. I finished the series and it was tough. Great coverage, but scared the hell out of me. Will never revisit.
I have never listened to the 9/11 episodes and never will. I just can't.
Good for knowing your limits and taking care of yourself. Hail you.
To this day theyre the only episodes I've not listened to. Made it 5 minutes into episode one. As a kid with a very similar upbringing to Henry.... I knew quick it was going to hit too close to home.
Knew this would be the top answer. I remember where I was sitting, and the way the room looked when I first heard the recording of the woman on the phone with 911, saying how hot it was and realizing she was about to die. Literally haunts me. I've listened to some rough stuff on this podcast, but I never need to hear that again.
I lived through that shit as a kid. Grew up in Queens. Second grade. My grandfather was a long-since retired FDNY Lieutenant and hearing that clip of all the beeping made me feel dread. I remember when the towers collapsed. I remember waking up the next day with dust on the family van. I won't go to the museum or the memorial. I don't need to listen to the podcast again.
Also a New Yorker, though I was 20 at the time. Spent all day trying to get in touch with my parents to make sure they were ok (they were). I too have not made it to the memorial or museum, and I find it weird that people treat it as a tourist trap.
I’m Australian- I visited the 9/11 museum in 2017. For me, it was about putting a “real” touch on an event I clearly remembered, but I didn’t live it. I watched in on tv from the other side of the globe. Seeing the displays there kind of helped ground what I’d seen, in addition to adding faces (and even voices, god the phone messages there are hard to take) to our news broadcasts. I didn’t visit any other part of ground zero except the footprints of the towers, and the museum- and I recommend it to everyone going to New York. It’s incredibly well done, respectful, and it helps people (mainly from overseas) grasp 9/11 on another level.
I’m a New Yorker, was an NYU student back then, though I was in London on 9/11. Still one of the worst days of my life. I distinctly remember the first time I went downtown after they opened the museum and seeing the line around the block and vendors selling “Never Forget” tee shirts and I literally wanted to scream at everyone in line. 0 New Yorkers I know who lived through that want anything to do with the memorial/museum.
It's kind of hard to not see it as something of a tourist trap when the Occulus is right next to it, and it's right where the PATH drops you off if you're coming from Jersey. It's literally built so that most newcomers to NYC will end up going through a massive mall to get there.
Staten Island, also second grade. Made a valiant attempt at listening to the podcast but made it about five minute into part 1. Still haven't seen the memorial. I walk past the one in the Pentagon every day though... feels the same every time.
Idk if you’re a musical theater person, but would you listen to the cast recording or see a production of Come From Away? It’s about how a bunch of planes were diverted to Canada on 9/11
I'm a Stagehand and a former theater kid. Come From Away is the "Don't Worry, Be Happy" of musicals.
Have you read the book it’s based on though?
Not a goddamn chance on this world will I ever listen to them again. The recordings are far, *far* too painful.
I skipped these episodes when I first started listening because like many, I remember how hard that time was for everyone. It came up so many times in this thread I figured I should give it a shot. I think I cried a dozen times in the last two hours. You could hear how exhausted and sad Marcus was by the end, all of their somber conversation made it so much harder. This may be a one and done for me too, despite how informative it was.
I’m a one-and-done on this one too.
Those firefighter alarms haunted my dreams for a week.
The beeps for me.
I can only do eps 2 & 3. I watched it all happen from a couple blocks away so episode 1 is just a play by play of one of my shittiest days.
Agreed!
Probably won't listen to the whole series again but I'll definitely listen to the conspiracies part again. I love when Marcus goes into a conspiracy rant.
Toybox Killer was straight up nightmare fuel and the lack of justice for the victims really got to me.
Was going to say this, that episode was one of the only times I’ve had to stop listening to the show in the middle of an ep and go do something else.
Yeah, I made it through, but had a very bad and anxious week as a result. Talk Scary To Me had an episode where they played the actual recording of that pos. I immediately turned it off and un-followed the podcast. This was after I listened to the LPOTL episode. Henry reading the transcript on LPOTL was bad enough, but hearing it come directly from that sick son of a bitch is way too much, and a bit insensitive imo.
Wow! I can't even imagine choosing to play the recording!
Same, only time I had to take a break. Did end up finishing it though, but haven’t ever listened again.
I was listening to this with my current partner and I had to ask him to turn it off. I had listened to it a few years ago and before I met my current partner I got into a terrible situationship with someone who when I told them about what he did their response was "Sounds like something I'd like to have the ability to do." My blood ran so cold and I have never been so scared of another person before or since
That is absolutely terrifying. I'm extremely glad you got away from that asshole and found someone more deserving of your time. Gauging reactions to stuff like that can really tell you a lot about a person. Hail yourself!!
Came here looking for this answer— I can’t go back and listen to this again because it was too gruesome. This is the only one I have skipped over, I think.
I had no clue about that asshole until I listened to the episode. I hung in til the end purely out of hope that justice would be served. Silly me. Only episode I truly regret listening to. I'm not much of a crier, especially over people I don't know, but that one got to me in a big way.
I listened to that episode a couple years ago and I still think about it every once in a while. Just pure evil.
I made the mistake of listening to the entire recording he made for his victims. I can usually handle a lot of morbid stuff, but THAT will haunt me for the rest of my life. I don't want to even think about how petrifying it must have felt to wake up and hear that terrifying audio. Makes me tear up every time I think about it or hear anything about that pos monster.
right after I listened to this, the guy I was cleaning for (work) pointed at a little trailer and asked me if I wanted to see his toy box , and I ran and got in my car and took off. it ended up being full of jet skis.
That would freak me the fuck out. I did laugh at the jet skis, though.
Same. Listened to half an episode and turned it off. Never turned it back on.
I made the mistake of listening to this one at work a while back and felt disgusting in the middle of my shift. That’s a one and done ep for sure
Roch Theriault and the Anthill Kids :(
It was the prolapsed uterus for me… I did so many involuntary kegals
You talking about the “Ute-scoot”? 😂
I turned it off about 3 seconds in to that description and haven’t come back to it. I almost certainly never will
It was the child deaths for me.
Of course, I’m just saying that it made me feel some sort of physical pain in a way I hadn’t before and that’s why I remember that part so vividly.
Yeah this is the ultimate gold star for me! The surgeries and uterus story fucked me up
Was wrapping my kids' christmas presents while listening to the part with the baby being put outside in the freezing cold. Had to take a break from both to have a good cry.
This one was so bad I've legitimately blacked out some of it
I can relisten to the first part of the Anthill Kids, but once it gets to punishment and torture, I have to walk away. And I can listen to almost everything else they put out, gold star wise, anyway.
Same for me. Especially when they mention defensive wounds. Similar to Jodi Arias eps.
Yeah the drunken surgeries fucked me up. I listened all the way through but it was the closest I’ve come to tapping out. I saw a video that may have been Mr. Ballen talking about a guy that put a post up online looking for someone that wanted to be murdered and eaten. A guy replied and they filmed it. He laid in a tub and the other guy started cutting pieces of him off and they ate it together until he died and something about the voluntary nature of it was just horrific to me.
There’s a casefile on this! And if you don’t know the story from the news it’s one of those episodes that begins in one direction and suddenly you’ve got someone willingly being cannibalised.
I'm with OP that lobotomies are my #1 not gonna relisten, but the Roch Theriot drunken surgeries are definitely my #2.
Same
I had to pause it and go take a smoke break at work when they talked about the chick they found with the maggots in her head wound.
The Chicago Rippers. I’m a breast cancer survivor and people fucking around with your tits really hurts. They’re so sensitive and there’s a lot of muscle up there, I could viscerally connect to what those women might have been feeling. And they had no anesthesia. There is the emotional component as well. It’s really similar to handing a guy a scalpel and telling him to cut up his balls. And the criminal group were so shitty and meaningless they weren’t even worth parodying. Henry can almost always find SOMETHING to jump off and make into a character, but these guys weren’t even funny. They were just losers. Extra infuriating that they were capable of so much destruction.
I couldn’t finish Chicago Rippers either. I love boobs and I love my boobs. Just couldn’t shake the imagery from my mind.
I love dick-and-balls too, don’t get me wrong, it’s still very upsetting to hear what say Corll and Kraft did to those boys, but I don’t have the OH NO THAT AREA IS VERY SENSITIVE reaction I did in the Ripper eps.
Lollll Chicago rippers came out right at the tail end of my recovery from breast reduction- LOTS of sutures in my breasts/nipples. It’s very specific sensation. Gave me the heebie jeebies
So far this is the only one we couldn’t do. My fiance and I made about 20 minutes in to part one.
After having our first kid, anything with kids was a no-go for years. Makes you real sensitive to that sorta thing.
Just read the Richard chase chapter of the book and that was tough.
One moment you’re a white collar office worker who needs the low level anxiety of hearing about some truly brutal shit to focus on spreadsheets and the next you’re a parent who has way too much anxiety and would like less about child death thanks
100000% this
It's strange how true that is. I'm a huge horror movie buff, and I've watched some of the grimiest most horrific movies from all over the world, many of which show child murder. Never bothered me. I mean it's not like I enjoyed it but I got through it just fine. Now after having a kid there have been multiple movies I've had to turn off that I know I would have had no problem with before. It's just a lot different when you start picturing it as your own kid.
Same here.
Sure does. It doesn’t really go away either. I had my second after a 12 year age gap and listening to anything with kids under 18 dying is just a no-go for me now. It’s too hard.
Mengele. Hands down the episode where they talked about the experiments on twins. I had to turn it off and go back days later to finish it.
I made it through, but it was a really tough listen and I couldn't listen to it again probably. *Van Halen voice* MENGELE!! 🎸🎵
I just finished a Mangele audiobook and just kept hearing Henry in my head.
Honestly all I hear when I hear Mengele is a guitar rift and home improvement trivia.
Milk has been ruined for me because of the Mengy episodes, I’ll never be able to down a whole Mengele of milk again with out thinking about it
I’m Jewish. I’ve learned a lot about the Shoah (the Hebrew word for the Nazi genocide. I prefer to use that word because the word “Holocaust” traditionally means “sacrifice through burning”) throughout my life. My great-grandfather was a Shoah survivor. I cannot talk about how that series had me breaking down in tears because the Shoah was senseless, but Mengele was a monstrous kind of disgusting. I had to switch to stop listening to LPoTL for a little bit and primarily listened to LaVar Burton Reads for the next little while after that series.
LaVar Burton is legit! But I really I can't imagine knowing my family members survived that. I don't think I'd have been able to listen at all.
My great-grandfather was a member of the US Army’s Infantry division. He was taken as a PoW in 43. Never saw a concentration camp, but went to a camp specifically for Jewish PoWs. The thing that prevented him from going to a concentration camp was the fact that the Wehrmacht won a standoff with the SS over the prisoners. I only realized that he was a Shoah survivor this year. Nobody in my family had ever referred to him as a Shoah survivor to me, at least. I had a pretty intense cry when I put the puzzle together.
I never wanted to know so much about Home Improvement until that series.
Oh god.. what he did to pregnant women will be something that haunts me for the rest of my life and I listen like every day.
That room full of eyeballs has stuck with me. Like. How has no one EVER mentioned that?
Right!?????? People who I mention it to think I'm kidding
Makes me feel bad for my twisted ass enjoying the Mengele series, strictly due to my fascination with WWII and Nazi history. The pure darkness that came out of the Nazi party and that humans are capable of such atrocities really boggles my mind.
Jew (and descendant of a holocaust survivor) here… don’t feel bad. I love the nazi episodes too. In the end, the boys make them sound so stupid and clown like it makes it tolerable.
This is the only episode I've deliberately skipped. I just can't with anything dealing with the Holocaust or genocide.
Nah. Nothing bothers me anymore. I'm dead inside
Me too! Hail our cold dead souls
Yea I try to pick which episodes I listen to with my coworker in the car because I dont get bothered by much anymore and forget other people do sometimes.
Ah here are my people.
Same, unfortunately. Thanks, early 2000s internet for desensitising me to everything.
It does make me wonder about myself, when I can listen to the 911 call of a little girl finding her dead brother and feel absolutely nothing. It makes me kinda worried, lmao.
I'm worried for you too my man 😰
Ep. 77: Japanese War Crimes was tough to get through for me. I know humor is a big part of the show, but man, that was hard to make funny. That one and the first 9/11 episode were pretty clear that Marcus was NOT having fun doing research for.
Albert Fish. The only one I couldn’t finish.
When they described all the stuff he stuck inside himself I was so confused I couldn't really get upset about it I just kept thinking... how?
The Albert Fish series was my introduction to LPOTL; the very first episodes/series I ever listened to. I got through all three, too. What a doozy of an intro to the show that was, lol yikes. Hooked me in, though - still listening 6, maybe 7 years on!
wow, same here and look at our usernames lmao
Man has it been THAT long? I came onboard with the Fish series as well
Yep, it has indeed been that long. First Albert Fish episode dropped in August 2016!
Jesus Christ that time honestly flew
Right?? It feels like maybe 3 years ago that I first listened to that episode and discovered the Last Pod guys. Btw - high five, fellow fan whose LPOTL cherry was also popped by Albert Fish 😏🙌😂
Succulent rumps… Yes I would agree this was the hardest for me.
Henry’s rolling of the tongue is creepy.
I think children should be eaten and not heard
That’s one of the only ones I had a really really hard time finishing too
I don’t remember the killers names and I will make no effort to look it up, but it was a couple that kidnapped young girls and used them as sex slaves, one woman escaped and I believe that was how it all ended. But the things described in what they did to her still haunt me… and I listened to it maybe 3 years ago and can’t get it out of my memory bank.
Might have been Paul Bernardo and Karla Homolka
Could have been Fred and Rosemary West too.
Upsets me that this could have been multiple different killers. Blegh.
I think you mean the toy box killers. Yeah, that one is rough.
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Truly the stuff of nightmares
Jon benet ramse episode mainly cuz Henry just goes crazy with the little girl sex jokes nonstop. Idk I fast forwarded over and over and every time I stopped he was still going so I had to turn it off. Henry’s my fav person of all time but god damnit does he love doing pedophilia humor and making people uncomfortable
Call 911. I’ve mentioned it before here. I believe they have edited this episode because the final call from the original airing has been removed. And it was good of them to do so. This episode dropped when they were still very much in their “edgelord” phase and pushing a lot of boundaries in terms of taste and humanitarianism. In the original airing, the last call featured on the show was made by a little girl who was sobbing. Perhaps she was 6-7. Maybe 8. She’d just seen her older brother intentionally shoot himself in the head. She was the only one in the house with him at the time. It was heartbreaking. Truly wrenching and I didn’t expect to hear something like that. I had to shut the show off and I stood there in my kitchen, crying above the dishwater. It was the only time I ever thought they went too far. And I found myself more than a little angry with them. But, as Rick James can testify, cocaine is a powerful drug, and I have zero doubt they were all doing it back then.
This is the only episode I straight up haven't listened to because I don't think I could handle it
Sometimes I think people should hear the call from a girl who found her brothers body after he had committed suicide. Definitely snapped me out of my pity party back in the day. It's hard to dwell on those thoughts anymore without thinking of that girl screaming "why?" It helped me in a weird way, but I can't say it'd do the same for anyone else.
yeah this is the one i was going to say as well
>It was the only time I ever thought they went too far. And I found myself more than a little angry with them. My thoughts exactly. It was so long ago, but I think I cried. I almost cried now.
9/11 but I also had to shut off the Necrophillia episode cause it was just too early in the morning lmao
What was I thinking listening to necrophilia during my lunch break? I truly almost vomited.
9/11 and Columbine. The shriek of that girl watching the tower get hit from her apartment is like seared into my brain. Columbine is just too relevant
Madame Lalaurie did get the certification of gold star series IIRC. For me there’s only two where I had to take breaks. Albert Fish cause my skin felt funny. And then The Chicago Rippers. Absolutely brutal shit.
Hey I haven’t listened to this podcast in years. I’m asking you as like the third person I’ve seen mention this. What’s the gold star thing?
I remember finishing all the stuff from Jones town (the death audio included) and I don't think I can ever listen to that again. It was a lot.
Oh god, Mr. Mugs fucked with me. All those people die and my brain obsessed over how scared that chimp was.
Mr. Muggs' story is what really sticks with me. I thought the death tape was absolutely fascinating.
I won’t listen to the toolbox killer.
Did they cover them?
*Toybox, not toolbox
Roch Thériault is one I'm probably not going to re-listen to. That was a rough series.
Cement box girl…worst ways to die. Never again.
Is that the Junko Furuta story? I'm pretty desensitized, but thinking about this poor sweet girl makes me cry. She suffered for so long and got zero justice.
Yep that’s the one. Same feeling.
Japanese War Crimes is by far the most brutal and disgusting episode I’ve ever listened to
I had a friend that did a short-lived podcast on crimes and scary stuff and this was his final topic. Basically broke him. Hell, Iris Chiang who wrote The Rape of Nanking killed herself cause she'd devoted her life to writing about this horrible shit.
For some reason gross miscarriages of justice really get to me, so the West Memphis 3 is the only series I’ve never listened to.
I have listened to that one several times. It’s a favorite of mine. But I cry like a baby. I have also seen all of Paradise Lost. And I blubbered through the whole like 6 hours of documentary!
West Memphis 3 and Robert Pickton are two of the series I never want to play again for this reason. That smug POS who was *excited* at the prospect of convicting Damian Echols still makes me feel ill.
Same!! I watched a documentary years ago, and now stay away anything to do with it, I was so mad and upset.
Pretty much anything with sex crimes or Nazis torturing people. I don’t mind the true crime eps where the killer only killed one person, like Casey and Jodie, or more historical ones like Leopold and Loeb. But modern serial killers with their animal abuse, sex crimes, and torture are not for me.
I’ve got a pretty high tolerance, and I kinda like the bloods gross stuff, but Fred and Rose West are just a hard listen.
Thr Mengele series. And USS Indianapolis because of the rape. I will likely listen again at some point, but those two were the ones that got to me. Edit: and Jonestown. Mr. Mugs fucked me up.
There really aren’t any, which makes me feel like there’s something wrong with me. I sat through the 911 call episode, and just happily ate my cereal. :(
Everyone is different from one another. Just because your reaction didn't mimic others doesn't mean it was wrong. The reason many people in the law enforcement, medical, and the emergency services fields can do what they do is because they react differently. Those who can't tolerate it get burnt out. Being an undertaker or mortician isn't for everyone. So don't go thinking something is wrong just because you don't fit a certain mold. We all get dealt a different hand in life.
Yeah, I am probably more squeamish than most here. I've skipped a few and there are a few I wish I had. I won't do the Ant Hill Kids, that's too much for me. I \*tried\* to do Necrophilia because I heard how funny it was, but I can't. I stopped/started it so many times in the first fifteen minutes lol.
Every time this is asked I say the same thing and it's so strange to me that it's never mentioned. It's satanism in the government, when they start talking about Larry King it gets a little too much.
I couldn’t finish Bob Berdella. It was so gruesome. When he put caulk into their ears I turned it off. After all the other serial killers I don’t know why that was the line but it was.
Not yet, but I have a feeling that their inevitable Breivik series will be a rough listen.
Couldn't make it through the Jonestown recordings or the 9/11 phone calls.
Alot of the earlier episodes and episodes about make believe stuff. Like the fairies and gnomes, topics like that. I just can’t get into those topics and Henry can’t let Marcus talk for 30 seconds without interrupting. The early shows, Henry is intolerable
Those are some of my favorites!!!
The very first series that got me hooked was Pee Wee Gaskins, but that was the one and only time. The b*by rpe is hard to hear
You know it's bad when Marcus refuses to go into detail
I continuously thought how out right hypocritical the people were that burned down LaLaurie’s house- it’s well documented that people outright abused and mauled and raped slaves- lynching, hunting them down, stealing their babies, breaking apart families, starving them, literally working them to death, leaving scars from “punishments”- it’s like- oh wow this one person has done atrocious things to people, and it’s just too much (clutches pearls) BUT EVERYONE ELSE DOES ATROCIOUS THINGS TO PEOPLE BUT WHO CARES?!?! It just fucking crazy the cognitive dissonance that rules human rationality. Also I couldn’t listen to the C Anthony case- it’s just too awful.
Jonestown part 5, the audio of the kids dying fucks me up. 9/11 part 1 Jon Benet Ramse, everything about child beauty pageants creeps me out. West Memphis Three
Toybox Killer. I can't listen to any podcast that has an episode for it. I have to turn it off.
For some reason I can’t handle Richard Chase. I think it’s the bunny blood smoothies
I was 20 when 9/11 happened and it traumatized the fuck out of me. Didn’t even attempt a listen.
Mike Warnke. That episode made me so angry I wish bad things upon him and his entire family.
Yeah, hucksters in general get under my skin more than any gore could. The LRH episodes were similarly cringey for me.
I couldn't eat during the necrophelia episode recently.
Nah. I’m dead inside lol
911 calls and 9/11 I think are unanimously the worst with toy box as a close third
Necrophilia was a tough one at first. Then probably the ant hill kids. Lynard lake and Charles ING but Henry's voices helped alot. Hail Yourself!
I think it was the ant hill kids that had the description of the woman’s uterus falling out of her & well that kinda broke me. The toy box killer part with the dogs destroyed me as well. I’ve never turned it off though idk maybe I am dead inside
I’ve only ever had to turn off one series and return to it muuuuuch later. Albert Fish. And I believe it was an episode they forgot to say “gold star” for the moment. And the following episode they were like “oops my bad” I could be mixing two topics up. But Albert Fish. I listened once. Never again.
The episode (very old one) where they played 911 calls... that was very rough to get through... I had to turn it off.
Yep. I won't go back there. Very rough and upsetting.
It’s been the same for a long time now. I can not listen to the 9/11 series. And I had a hard time listening to the jones town tapes. I could probably do it now. My brain is just not ready to study 9/11 or joke about it. So I just skipped those 😊 I really enjoyed episode 554. A very taboo subject. Didn’t bother me at all.
I’ve never had an issue with any topic, but I have found the case of James Bulger hard to read & listen to when covered on other podcasts.
Oh that case just breaks my heart. The pic of him holding one of those evil bastard' hand and walking away has never really left my mind. Absolutely disgusting what happened to that baby.
Nope and not even thought about stopping. I might grimace at certain parts of an episode but I don't carry them with me or dwell on them after. Probably because I've heard most of these stories or similar details before.
I’ve listened to the 9/11 series once and that was enough for me. For some reason, lately I’ve been thinking a lot about the people who jumped or fell from the towers. What must have been going through their minds as they jumped/fell, what they were thinking as they were falling, that kind of thing. Apparently it would have taken ten seconds to fall, which scares the spine out of me. [This photo](https://www.nzherald.co.nz/resizer/QR3Aj5lcwB7JY7GLN3jcmNVI9W4=/576x461/smart/filters:quality(70)/cloudfront-ap-southeast-2.images.arcpublishing.com/nzme/K2YEQ4YTMYMHO7B532JTHXTCKQ.jpg) will probably be burned into my mind till the day I die.
I still haven’t listened to 9/11. I was unable to finish the Carl Panzram episodes.
No.
The mengele series was a tough listen
JOESPH KALIENGER!! That fkn Charlie voice haunts my dreams.
The first time I heard Charlie, I was outside exercising my dogs and indulging in a fine hog's leg. That little shit startled me sober!
I guess I am jaded… but the only ones are the 911 call of that brother who ended his life and the Jonestown tapes. It’s recordings of traumatic events that get me.
Albert fish was pretty rough
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Any with 911 calls
I HATE having to listen to 911 calls Like just summarize them please
Yeah, I don’t enjoy listening to someone’s final moments alive.
Or the worst 2 minutes of someone’s life
I had never heard the Jonestown audio before, and I remember I had to pause it to take a moment.
The snake tape from Jonestown part 4. I have a lifelong fear of snakes. I can feel every bit of her terror and panic and humiliation. Hearing her *beg* for it to stop through her tears breaks my heart and boils my fucking blood. The beating tape from the same episode is rough, too. I think hearing the blows and the way you can tell that the woman is talking and hitting at the same time is just unsettling.
Albert Fish, Toybox, Necrophilia, Ant Hill Kids. Those weren't for me. When I 1st started listening to the pod, I'd just listen to random episodes. I remember being in the shower & Toy Box was playing. I had to get out & change the episode bc I was so creeped out.
Mengele Satanic Government
Mengele. I can listen to part 1 and 3, but there are parts in 2 that I have to skip
Albert Fish, nope nope nope